I'm Tired

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about what to do with this issue I have. I've figured out part of it. But, in order to go ahead with the plan, I'm gonna need a job. The one I have right now is uncertain. I'm really tired these days. Just emotionally and mentally drained. It's frustrating when your voice is not heard. And, when you voice your opinion, you're dismissed as a complainer or finger pointer.

My mobility is an issue. My plan is to save my ot checks and hope I can find something by the this time next year. Even though I want the suv, I'll settle for the car. Something that saves on gas, has a/c, and 4 doors. We'll see how this budget issue goes with the agency to know if my plan will work out for me.

As far as work goes, I think I need to find something new. I'll start within the agency looking for a new office or department. Then I'll begin working on outside the agency. My main concern is my insurance. I really need it and I'm not sure if I can go without it. I wouldn't be able to pay the dr. bills.

All I know is that I am trying my best to deal with everything and I need to go back to see my counselor or find another therapist that isn't expensive.

How do I find the energy?

when will i get off my a**?

i guess the question i have to ask myself now is when will i get off my a**? i feel that it's time for me to move on, but i haven't done anything about it yet. things aren't what i would have expected, and they don't seem to be getting any better. i know that if i want to move on, i need to do something. i'll probably begin putting in applications within the coming weeks. too bad i didn't do what i should have done when i went to school. and, maybe my bachelor degree wouldn't have been such a waste.