Looking Back on Things

This year has had a lot of ups and downs.  I'm going through some of the same nonsense. I know that it is my fault for allowing myself to be treated that way and not really doing anything about it.  I have noticed that something isn't right with me.  I think I made the right decision to go to counseling in the beginning of the year. At this point, I haven't been back since finishing my sessions in May.  I need to find a new counselor to help me with my issues because trying to talk it out with those that are helping to make matters worse ... it's not an option.  I can only blame myself for allowing it.  I have to share the blame with those who continue to push me closer and closer to the edge, and damn near push me over it.  I'm hoping that reconnecting with friends from before this job will help to keep me centered and sane.  Hey, I even bumped into someone I hadn't seen in nearly 10 years.  Though, I don't expect that to pan out to anything. Can you really call someone your friend when you barely speak to one another or don't even hang out?  Oh well, I can always say I knew you when.  I'm hoping 2016 will bring forth new beginnings and a new chapter to write in my life.