And the cheese stands alone

I found out today that the majority of my peers are against me. Apparently, someone doesn't like what I have posted on my Facebook wall. It's funny because I don't name names about who has upset me. I just describe the feelings I have about the event that has happened. To me, if you take offense to something that I have posted, and I didn't say your name at all, you must be guilty of the incident described.

I find it amusing that I have to deal with adults that act like children. And, it's funny how these so called adults have to make such an effort to put you down just to make themselves feel like they are somebody. The one thing that puzzles me about these people is how they can rally the troops to be against me for their reasons, but no one can actually speak to me about why they are upset with me.

I would rather be alone than to be one of the followers of individuals that don't know how to act like adults. Is this why the relationship that I want to mend will probably never be mended? If so, it's too bad that person couldn't and won't be adult enough to say what they need to say.

It's weird having people scared to talk to you. But, they are bold enough to talk a lot of noise behind your back. Then, have the nerve to get offended when you voice your feelings.

I'm just saying...

Time to heal

Been wondering about a friendship that I had. Well, it was sort of a friendship. Hadn't talked to this person in a while ... Been some months. I sent him a birthday wish via facebook email and also said goodbye. I told him that he didn't have to respond even though I wanted him to. Hoped he would. He didn't respond. I tried calling but that didn't go well at all. I didn't even get past telling him who I was before I was hung up on. No call back, as if it was by mistake. I didn't call back or email or text. I just left it and him alone. There was no explanation or bad words or anything. It's just a day later, and the pain is still fresh. But, I know I need to take the advice of a friend and just drop it. There is something nagging at me to know what went wrong or why it happened. I just have this feeling that I will not find out since he will not talk to me. Been told that only an a**hole would do something like that.

D-Day in one week

I made a decision a few weeks ago to make up my mind about an individual in my life.

I know that 1/2 of it is my fault. I was blinded by my own thoughts of who I thought he was, and the face that I did like him. It was really hard to be friends due to my feelings but I did the best I could to make it work.

When the incident happened, things got awkward. We stopped talking. Or, he stopped talking to me. There was always an excuse not to speak to me. Of course, I always had to initiate the conversation.

I have a week to figure out if I want to try to fix our broken friendship or if I will just let go.

I'm still going back and forth on this. I don't want to lose someone that was special to me, but I can't keep holding on to something that the other person doesn't want to keep.

Why do you need an education when ur job doesn't recognize it?

That is the million dollar question. Where I work, they ask for a minimum of college credits. I have a Bachelors degree. A co-worker brought up the fact that she doesn't get paid for being bilingual. It got me to thinking. I started off with the same beginning salary even though I do have a degree. We don't get raises. If you're here for multiples of two years you get $20 extra in your paycheck after every 2nd year. No cost of living raise. A rare bonus when they feel u did something good after five or so years. BUT, here is the kicker, they're trying to get rid of jobs and take away our medical benefits. The majority of the people that work at my location have some sort of medical issue. I chose the wrong employer. I am being stifled. My intellect is going unnoticed. I'm stuck in the background with the underachievers that don't want to do anything but show up, let someone else do the work, and get paid for being lazy.

Hit with a hard one

Found out today that I will have to manage with about $200 less in net income. Have to start paying back college loan. Been deferring for too long and then defaulted without knowing. It was one of those things that I didn't remember. Now the money is being paid if I want it to or not. After checking my finances, it's gonna be rough for the many months to come. Now I need to learn how to live on a budget. Before, I just made it work somehow. But, everything didn't get the attention it needed or deserved. Well, more things will be neglected until I can find out how to survive.

A messed up thing happened to me

So much has gone on in the past few months. I was indirectly involved in what could be considered a crime. That incident netted me an alleged boyfriend. Alleged because we are hardly friends. Needless to say that we are no longer on speaking terms. With the end result of the situation, he kinda just walked out of my life. There was no more of a need for him to speak or want to be bothered. I do feel as though it was a friendship of convenience. I was dumb enough to play the roll of the idiot that once had feelings for someone I was trying to be friends with. Also, during this time, I found out that people I thought were my friends are not. To act shady and try to pump me for info is not cool. It's really messed up that one would want to protect the identity of the person spreading rumors and lies but act concerned for you. Well, that's what happened to me. I guess I need to learn to keep to myself. Can't even confide in anyone anymore. That's what I get for working around a lot of gossiping females I guess.