D-Day in one week

I made a decision a few weeks ago to make up my mind about an individual in my life.

I know that 1/2 of it is my fault. I was blinded by my own thoughts of who I thought he was, and the face that I did like him. It was really hard to be friends due to my feelings but I did the best I could to make it work.

When the incident happened, things got awkward. We stopped talking. Or, he stopped talking to me. There was always an excuse not to speak to me. Of course, I always had to initiate the conversation.

I have a week to figure out if I want to try to fix our broken friendship or if I will just let go.

I'm still going back and forth on this. I don't want to lose someone that was special to me, but I can't keep holding on to something that the other person doesn't want to keep.

Why do you need an education when ur job doesn't recognize it?

That is the million dollar question. Where I work, they ask for a minimum of college credits. I have a Bachelors degree. A co-worker brought up the fact that she doesn't get paid for being bilingual. It got me to thinking. I started off with the same beginning salary even though I do have a degree. We don't get raises. If you're here for multiples of two years you get $20 extra in your paycheck after every 2nd year. No cost of living raise. A rare bonus when they feel u did something good after five or so years. BUT, here is the kicker, they're trying to get rid of jobs and take away our medical benefits. The majority of the people that work at my location have some sort of medical issue. I chose the wrong employer. I am being stifled. My intellect is going unnoticed. I'm stuck in the background with the underachievers that don't want to do anything but show up, let someone else do the work, and get paid for being lazy.

Hit with a hard one

Found out today that I will have to manage with about $200 less in net income. Have to start paying back college loan. Been deferring for too long and then defaulted without knowing. It was one of those things that I didn't remember. Now the money is being paid if I want it to or not. After checking my finances, it's gonna be rough for the many months to come. Now I need to learn how to live on a budget. Before, I just made it work somehow. But, everything didn't get the attention it needed or deserved. Well, more things will be neglected until I can find out how to survive.