on the road to a better outlook...

just when you think that things won't get better, you begin to see the silver lining in an otherwise dark cloud. last week i received a call that offered little hope. but, luckily, the person on the other end kept their word and called me today. i was offered a job that i had applied for a few times. i guess they figured i really wanted the job since i kept applying for it. so, my 11 1/2 month vacation is over! now, all those things i had to put off can now be taken care of. my outlook on life is starting to turn a rosy color, but very slowly. i still have to wait and see how things are going to turn out with those other issues that i have to deal with. i'm a little more positive that things will work out, if given enough time. i remember one sermon that the pastor spoke about fear. as i've been thinking about it, i think i am going to face one of my fears and open the lines of communication with someone that i never thought i'd speak to again. yeah, it's time they knew what was up.in closing, i guess i'll have to begin my journey once again. it seems like i'm always starting on that path to religion (the lord) and, for some reason, i'm always leaving. it's an issue that is hard to deal with when your faith is not what it should be and you try but you're not strong enough to see through the bad times or the pain. maybe this time will be different. we'll see...

confidence is a must

my cousin took me driving today. i went from one side of town to the other and i got to drive! :) it was pretty cool. today was a nice day for driving. there are a few things that i need to work on, especially my confidence. i just get so freaked out when i'm driving, especially in another person's car. i'm always scared i'm gonna hit something or get hit. but, i did a good job today. i swerved a little bit and bumped a curb, but i did a good job.

i'm on my way!

A Goal Accomplished

I wasn't like the other kids, and my parents weren't really like other parents. In high school, I didn't do driver's education, or even learn how to drive outside of school. My teen years were spent hoping for a better future and dreaming about what I wanted in life. From there, I became sort of a loner as an adult. I went to college, but my social flower didn't completely bloom. It opened up a little bit, but not enough. Over the past 10 years, I've tried a few times with the driving lessons. One of my aunt's finally decided to take me to get my license. Of course, I am typically nervous when it comes to taking tests. I read the book at least twice and even wrote notes. I studied my notes and looked over the signs one last time before taking the computer test. I did pretty good --- 21 out of 24 correct. The driving was something else. The horn didn't work so the test was stopped. A few hours later the horn was fixed, and I had to wait my turn. It was hot and I don't do heat, so I was sweating like I was being interrogated. LOL. The next tester was going to stop my test because the tail light was cracked. Luckily, I was able to take the test. Even though I was nervous, I didn't have an accident. I even pulled into a parking space that was between two cars. I always hate that because I'm scared of hitting someone's car. In the end, after a brief conversation, I was told that I just barely passed my driving test. I do have some things to work on, so I plan to do that within the coming year since it will be a while before I am able to buy a car. I'm just happy that I finally got it out of the way.