Decided this Christmas that I would think of me. The family I would love to be around is many, many miles away. I just wasn't able to make it there this time around. I know Christmas this year will be as it has always been in recent years. So, I had to think of myself for once and splurge on me. The majority of the gifts that will go under my tree are for me from me. There are a few that others were kind enough to think of me. Some were from an office gift exchange. I didn't participate in the "buy gifts for all" this year because my heart wasn't in it this time around. I'll think of my loved ones who aren't here and wish that I could have been there with them.
If I'm not going to think of myself at this time of year, who will? Not to offend my relatives that are in town, but those who should at least think of me do not. I will even admit it, I don't always think of them. Probably because they don't think of me. I did get them something this time around, but still deciding if I want to get in the holiday spirit and gift them knowing they were never thinking of me. The way I see it is one of two ways. 1) Keep the items for myself and all is good. They weren't thinking of me so I need to think of me. 2) Gift them this Christmas. I won't look like the bad guy for not thinking of them.
The other relatives... Well, there's more than I could afford. With everyone being older and expecting something that costs money, I leave that to their respective parents. I don't have money like their parents do. The main thing is for me to be able to take care of me.
This Christmas is for me.
