on the road to a better outlook...

just when you think that things won't get better, you begin to see the silver lining in an otherwise dark cloud. last week i received a call that offered little hope. but, luckily, the person on the other end kept their word and called me today. i was offered a job that i had applied for a few times. i guess they figured i really wanted the job since i kept applying for it. so, my 11 1/2 month vacation is over! now, all those things i had to put off can now be taken care of. my outlook on life is starting to turn a rosy color, but very slowly. i still have to wait and see how things are going to turn out with those other issues that i have to deal with. i'm a little more positive that things will work out, if given enough time. i remember one sermon that the pastor spoke about fear. as i've been thinking about it, i think i am going to face one of my fears and open the lines of communication with someone that i never thought i'd speak to again. yeah, it's time they knew what was up.in closing, i guess i'll have to begin my journey once again. it seems like i'm always starting on that path to religion (the lord) and, for some reason, i'm always leaving. it's an issue that is hard to deal with when your faith is not what it should be and you try but you're not strong enough to see through the bad times or the pain. maybe this time will be different. we'll see...