In the many months of unemployment, things have seemed to go from so-so to bad. Now, I am faced with the task of deciding which bills will get paid and which ones will continue to affect my credit rating; which will make it harder for me to find work due to employers believing my credit history tells them the type of person I am. I am beginning to believe that my biggest mistake was coming back to this city. Life, for me, has basically gone downhill since 2006. I thought I was on the right track, but I didn't see the danger that was lurking ahead. Funny thing is that the person who sort of foretold of this happening to me is the person that helped to put me in this predicament when she pretended to be my friend only to turn against me and put that knife in my back. I never knew that this is something religious people do to others. I've heard of people only finding happiness when others are suffering. I just didn't know that this woman was so hell bent on seeing me suffer. I don't know what her problem is.
But, now I have to figure out what my problem is and how I'm going to deal with things. I am ready to give up and run away from all of this and make my new start someplace else. I'm working up the nerve to ask my father to take me in for a while until I can get back on my feet.
Someone once told me that the best revenge on haters of all kinds is to do better for yourself.
I am trying to go into this with a positive attitude, but it's hard.
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